“I just don’t understand!” is a phrase I have said to God quite often in the last few years. Since God moved us to Detroit, we have been on a roller coaster of highs and lows, good times and hard times, exciting and thrilling moments of joy and deep and hurtful moments.
(Sometimes when Jon and I talk about the last five years or so… We shake our heads and say, “You just really can’t make this stuff up!”)
I feel guilty when I ask God, “Excuse me…What are you up to?” I should be a “Super-Christian Woman” Been saved since I was Five. Grew up in a pastor’s home. Went to Bible college. I am a Pastor’s Wife for crying out loud! I should have un-waivering faith and never doubt God for one millisecond.
But, I am must confess. I am not the perfect Christian. Although, I would very much like you to believe that I never have moments where I feel as if I am going to fall apart at the seems or feel frustrated with my circumstances that clearly God has put in my life. But the truth is I do. We all do. And it’s ok to say it out loud. “GOD, I don’t understand!”
I read this verse in Proverbs again this morning. (I love reading Proverbs. There are so many truths and simple, but deep thoughts packed into this book of the Bible.)
A man’s steps are from the LORD: how then can man understand his way?
When I read that verse again (maybe for the thousandth time), it dawned on me…..
I CAN’T understand! I’m NOT going to understand!
NEWS FLASH to Keiki: God thinks different then me! I am not going to understand. I don’t need to! He has got this!
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.
God is on a different level then me. (Duh!) I can think myself to be pretty smart, but I need to be humble enough to admit that I don’t understand and can’t understand, unless God reveals it to me.
I don’t believe it is wrong to ask Why? Nor do I think it’s wrong to come to God and talk to him about your frustration. He is our Father. He loves us. He wants us to come to Him! I don’t need to feel guilty about asking God for understanding, when I so often do not understand!
As a Christian we should cling to God even closer in the moments of non-understanding. We trust Him to save us for eternity. Can I trust him to work out ___________________ situation? Can I stop my mind from trying to figure it all out and rest in Him and experience peace that only He gives?
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will direct your paths.
Are you in an “I Don’t Understand” moment? It’s ok to ask God, “Can you help me understand?” Then while we wait for the answer (which sometimes may be “Just trust Me.”), get real close to God so he can keep leading you, so you can hear him, and along the journey experience some of the greatest blessings from the moments you just Didn’t Understand.